2012-07-17 09:36 pm (UTC)
Well, one could argue that the ticket is either 100 per cent sure of winning or 100 per cent sure of losing. Therefore, you have a 50/50 chance.
This is, of course, why I am in journalism.
"a lottery ticket is only effective until you collapse it's quantum state."
I must quote this sometime.
I wonder if you have a deeper fear of power.
Whoa. Chrometophobia. I never knew there was a term for this, but I absolutely have this. Dealing with bills, unexpected issues and anything money related turns me into a sobbing ball of anxiety and depression.
This post blew my mind. I seriously thought I was alone. I should know better.
If you like you can send me the lottery ticket and I'll deal with it for you.
I can relate to you somewhat because I hate money; I wouldn't call it a phobia exactly, but yeah, it worries me. This becomes a real problem when I have to invoice people!
Do things like credit or debit cards, or checks, or other indirect forms of financial exchange also trigger your phobia, or is it specifically cash? What about foreign currency - a lot of Americans look at even Canadian money, never mind stuff from Europe or Asia, as being "funny money", and not quite "real".
Pretty much anything financial scares the fuck out of me. My chrometophobia is so severe that there have been times I've left gigs without being paid simply because I can't deal with the stress of the money end of performing.
So basically you need a manager, whose job will include handling your finances. Lots of performers have managers :-)
Pretty much. John steps in and does this for me a lot of the time. Most people I work with regularly are aware of my chrometophobia and work around it.
You could also see what you might be able to accompish via barter - I understand that there are thriving barter organizations all over the place now. I don't participate in them (yet), but, for example, if I lived in Hamilton you could draw a picture for me in exchange for my supplying you with delicious baked goods for a year. I've also heard of things being done indirectly - as a theoretical example, I help somebody fix their car, they give you a vintage keyboard, for which you comp me a ticket to one of your gigs. And never a scrap of currency nor a ledger entry in sight! (And nobody pays any taxes on these transactions, either.)
wow. I've never heard of it but I don't see anything weird or wrong about a money-phobia. I do however see weirdness and wrongness (read - unnatural) in our use of money and economy as a species. This awesome deadhead kid I met at a festival told our camp about how he can't wait until all the money in the world is valueless accept for its physical use as a building material or burning for fuel, but that it is so dirty it would be extremely low-end and undesirable. Many people believe this dissolve is necessary for our species healthy evolution into the future.
Stay strong and remember you're amazing :)
Money is a stumbling block and a snare,major religions agree on this.I deal with bills by throwing them away.It works because the red one at least gives me a sensation of urgency which gives me the energy to deal with it.
I have no credit cards,nothing on hire purchase,no mortgage because I hate dealing with them.It turns out in this financial climate it was a good idea all along.
People when they play what would you do with a million pounds find me boring because after I've said I want a full time cleaner and a new leather jacket,I can't think of anything.
Your fear is rational compared to my biggest fear which is latex balloons. I fear they will pop. I work in a place where if it's someone's birthday, I have to blow up at least two. Drives me insane when I have to do it.
Just try to slowly work on your fear if you can. Be adventurous, and keep buying those tickets! ha ha.
Well put with the quantum state of lottery tickets. I also find myself enamored with the idea of winning the lottery and having enough money to wipe out all my day to day problems. I've actually gone weeks without checking my tickets just because I want to continue the illusion.
Mild form of the money thing. If i do some thing for some one, i do not take money. I hate it, will take and rip the money up if they give it to me, or just let it float away from me by dropping it. I will take the money i earn from work, but i usually end up using it for others. Not in the same boat as you, but do know where you are coming from....
2012-07-20 12:33 am (UTC)
I think I have a similar system in place in my own life. I'm an aspiring author, and I've been working on several pieces of fiction in my spare time. I also get depressed on a regular basis, and I think about killing myself, but I think "I should finish what I'm writing first," and so I don't. That being said, I don't know if it's any good, and I don't want to. It's the same quantum state idea. As long as I don't know whether what I'm writing is shit or not, I can go on thinking that it might be good, and that I might contribute meaningfully to society one day.
2012-07-20 09:36 pm (UTC)
I also buy tickets with that same state of mind and I avoid checking them for months. I have had dozens of tickets expire it freaks me out when I hear that a big jackpot has gone unclaimed
That must be awful. But I can imagine that ... if say John won the lottery ... you would come up with better things to do with vast resources than would most people.